Confessions

Sunday, January 31, 2010


You leave me with no choice,
I really don't have a choice,
I love you.

When I watch you sleep like a baby,
I feel reborn, you make me forget all my past.

When you wait for me in the porch,
Sipping your coffee, counting seconds,
I wish more, you make me feel alive every time.

When we sit in our backyard,
shoulder-to-shoulder, watching sunset,
I talk more, not with words rather with my silence.

When you tell me how stupid I am,
For getting you the best pearl set,
I love you, I wish I could tell you.

I love you and I know, you love me too.
Why can't you give me a chance?
I'm waging a war, knowing for sure I'll lose.
You leave me with no choice,
I really don't have a choice,
I still Love you.

Take a breath and hold on!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

On an evening with blazing sun,
Painting the sky with jubilant colors.
I felt like a kid and I was full of fun,
That's when the sky filled me with its colors.
I let my mind fly high with my wings spread wide,
Over the mountains, sea and sky.
Don't you look for god anywhere,
For she is nature, present everywhere.

Yes, God is nature and we could sense her presence everywhere. Mother nature is amazingly beyond explanation with words. Even if we try our best with all our linguistic skills, we would still diminish her majesty. I'm not religious; I don't claim to be a great follower of any religion or ardent believer of any god. But, after all these years of living my life in this planet earth, I just can't shake the idea of a supreme power. Everything you see is beautiful, everything that is unadulterated by us - human beings, are indeed really beautiful. Right from the early morning sunrise to sunset to a night full of stars and ivory moon, everything is beautiful. There is nothing in everything and everything in nothing. We are always too busy to admire simple but beautiful stuffs around us.

One such beautiful natural event was last week's annular solar eclipse. Though the solar eclipse itself was pretty much interesting, what made it more intriguing was the way people reacted to it. There was anxiety, wonderfulness, strong arguments, altercations, finding out facts and what not.

On top of everything there is a subtle lesson to learn from this eclipse. YOU JUST CAN'T SHINE BRIGHT ALWAYS. YOU MIGHT FEEL SUBDUED AT TIMES, BUT UNDERSTAND THAT IT IS JUST TEMPORARY. That's what I heard the sun say to me on that day. It just applies to every one of us. It is not always clouds and candles for all of us, we all have our fair share of blues. Instead of whining about our temporary plight, we should believe our abilities and cross the hard path. We are not alone, we need not be. Reach for help, those who look for it, will get it. Take a breath and hold on dearly to your life. You will succeed!!!

Be HAPPY, It's more important.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Whatever we do, wherever we are, we all wish to be happy. What is happiness though? After a strenuous thinking, I'm sure about one thing. HAPPINESS is not the absence of SADNESS. They are not opposites, you just can't say that someone will be definitely happy if you wipe out all the sad feelings from him/her. She might be happy or she might end up not feeling anything, just feel empty from inside. Why is it so important to understand this? Because, human mind is a intoxicating mixture of different feelings, often in disproportionate measure. You should be able to figure out and celebrate when you are happy.


Being happy is not just about the raw feeling of content, its much more glorious. Happiness can revitalize every part of your body and change your attitude towards life. To be happy is very simple, but to figure out what makes you happy might take a life time . If you are lucky enough, you can figure it out in a fraction of second, though. Just, ask yourself a simple question, "What would make me the happiest person in the world?"

Initially, the question will seem to be very simple and more simpler will be to get an answer. Some might say more money will make them happy, another might say that buying a house might make them happy and they might be right in a way, of course, everybody will be happy to make more money or to own a house. But, think about it, does making more money or buying a new house make you happy every single time? Do you feel excited to the same level as you were when you bought your first house when you are buying your second one? May be you might be, but there will be a big difference in the quality. First time, its an achievement. Second time onwards its an investment and it doesn't hold any emotional value.

If you wish to be happy and wish to feel the happiness, you should work on figuring out what really makes you happy. It is as equally important as being happy itself. You should know what gives you real happiness, not happiness just for the sake of it. Once you know that, being happy is nothing but doing the same stuff that makes you real happy, over and over. And I'm telling you, this time your happiness would not fade away over time. Rather, it will radiate ever so powerfully over time.

We all are moving very fast to keep up with the world running so fast and hence, have no time appreciate the small things in our day to day life. Though we actually know what would make us happy, we just pretend to know not and chase something else since the world is going behind it.

There is no single rule for everyone here. What works out for me, might not work out for you. Otherwise, we would have never had Gandhiji and Subash Chandra Bose in the same era. Don't take your life for granted. It's going be to only once and you should give your best to make it worth. You can do it only by figuring out what makes you happy. Once you are happy, no one can stop you from achieving your dream.

Happy mind is god's heaven. Don't neglect something because its too less of an importance to your career. There is a life waiting for you out there, get out once in a while and fly high with your wings spread wide.

Make your own future

Friday, November 27, 2009

We always wonder looking at how our life has shaped up. When we think about our past and see the road we traveled, there will be many places we would like to go back and change the way we crossed it. If you don't feel that way when you look at your past, you may not proceed further. I guess you have figured out everything correctly in your life and your present is exactly what you wished to be your future, in your past. I'm very happy for you. In case, if you do feel that something had gone amiss and more so, your life is not exactly how you wished it to be, please continue.


We do not have control over everything in our life. But, certain things are under our control and if we mess with those, our life is gonna be doomed. All the big problems of our present life are the effect of many small stuffs we missed to do. I'm not talking about people who never got a chance to do certain things. I'm talking about people who missed the opportunity given to them. A person who did not concentrate on his studies during his schooling, for example. Someone who never got to go to school is entirely different.

Wherever we are now is not because of chance. Chances doesn't make your destiny, but choices do. You are whatever you are now, is simply because of the kind of choices you chose. Nothing is superficial or coincidence. Everything happened in your life happened because of some solid reason and most of the time your actions heavily influence them.

Think about it. If you fail in an interview, most probably you didn't qualify for their requirements. The reason could be that you didn't prepare well for your interview. Now the big question is, why you didn't prepare for your interview? There might be N number of reasons and one could be that you didn't have time. Now, why didn't you have enough time? This is a game that's not going to end now.

If you just think about it, you will get the bigger picture of what am trying to say. CAUSE and EFFECT, your past actions have influenced your present and your present actions will surely influence your future.

You did not land wherever you are because of some mere chance. That's an after effect of everything you did in your past. But still, I won't say that there are no other factors which might have influenced our life. There are, certainly there are. But what all I have to say is, don't ever leave certain things out of your control.

Dream your future and work hard to achieve it. Leave no stones unturned and no doors opened. After all, its your life. Lets not worry about the past anymore, anyway we can't change anything now. All we have now is our present and thus, our future.

Think about your future, see where you want to be, sketch a plan, see what needs to be done. Upgrade yourself, educate yourself if need be. Try to improve yourself so that you would be fit for your dream job. If you want to improve your financial condition, think what you need to do. Of course, am not assuring that there is not gonna be any deviation. Of course, there are going to be mishaps, unwanted situations, unnecessary efforts, but remember you have a plan now and with that its easy to know your deviation. It will never be a surprise for you anymore. At any given point of time, you will exactly know what you have to do to get yourself to the destination.

Remember one important but often unsaid rule of life, your present actions are the causes for the after effects you are gonna face in your future, majorly. Your future is not totally uncontrollable. Life is a journey, we can't foresee the entire course of the journey, but at least we have the liberty to decide our next big stop. And when you know where you want to go, it becomes easy for you to manage any sort of mishap.

Take proper action and control your own future. After all, its your life and there is nothing wrong to want it to be the way you wish.

Appreciate yourself, you are better than you think.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

I always believe in celebrations, however small it might be, one shouldn't deny the fact that celebrations do bring happiness. According to me, Life is all about being happy. Though, we have managed to set aside handful of dates every year for festivals and celebrations, the number is still very less when compared to the 365 odd days of an year. You should just grab every chance you get to celebrate. Because, celebrations helps you to rejuvenate yourself, redefine yourself and refine yourself.

Of course, its not easy to be happy always. Life is not very fortunate for everyone of us; we all have our share of hard blows. The will to live and survive every blow is what going to help oneself in the darkest hours.

We all try to give our best in everything we do. I know I do it, I also know that you do it, but do we really exceed the expectations always? It's a good question to ask ourselves. What do we do when our yield doesn't match our expectation?

I have observed people behave broadly in two different ways. Almost, all of us should have walked these roads for sure.

Play the pass-on-the-blame game:

Most of the time, we try to find some external factor to which we can attribute our failure to. It indeed does some good in a way, you don't get succumbed to your failure. Rather, it gives you an false protection which may not cover you perfectly from a much bigger blow. Mainly, it blinds you from the actual reasons and basically, you stop reasoning.

Whenever I give in to such a false security, I feel a burning sensation deep down my heart. Still, I don't worry about it much. Fear of self depravity. Suddenly, one fine day, it would be very obvious that I'm the one who faltered and there will be no turning back when I realize this. I'm doomed.

We all go through this phase in our life. This is not that bad when compared to the second scenario we're going to discuss now.

It's all because of me syndrome:

At times, due to over self-realization, we end up accusing ourselves in every first chance we get. When you are low in your self-confidence, every single simple failure will resonate in a high pitch scream within your mind and in no time you'll decide that you are good for nothing. This is the worst thing you can do to yourself.

When you do not reason with yourself, you deny yourself a chance to explain. This might have very serious implications in your actions and reactions. Whenever you start accepting blames without any reservation, you are doomed in no time.

The right way, in my opinion...

So, most of the time we either blame someone else or oneself for every single mishap that happens. When I think about this, I do see a problem in both of this approach. In both the cases, we do not give due appreciation that we deserve to ourselves.

Yes, you heard it right. I said, "You do not give yourself the due appreciation." Whether you fail or succeed, it doesn't matter. You should learn to appreciate yourself and give enough credit to your actions because you are better than you think.

If you happen to fail, instead of blaming yourself right away, first of all think about everything you did to keep up with the journey. Think about it. And appreciate yourself for everything you did. When you think about everything, you will be very clear about what went wrong or what you did not do properly or where you actually missed your course.

Life is hard, we struggle a lot to keep up our pace with everyone else. We might stumble here and there, it doesn't mean that we are out of the journey. We might be a bit late, but still if we are persistent enough we can make it with the lead. All we need to do is to throw some goodies at ourselves from time to time so that we do not wither away.

Teachers

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

"A teacher should pour out his soul into every one of his students and should water his students as if they are the last surviving plants in the Universe."


Teaching is one of the highly acclaimed and noblest profession on the face of the earth. Teaching is such an important profession because teachers shape the future of a society and thus, the country itself. In my opinion, teaching is a little more than any job available in the market; teachers do not only work to earn their living, they also carry a moral responsibility with them. They are not only responsible for their students academic education, they truly hold responsible for the moral and ethical values of their students. Of course, its their job, isn't it? Once you start your schooling, you spend one third of your day at school and that's where you pick up most of your values and belief system.

A good teacher [Of course, everyone of them out their in the teaching profession are good, at least, all of them are good at heart] can easily mend their students at their will. Students will follow their teachers if they really like them, if the teachers really mean something to them. But, tell me earnestly, how many such teachers have you had? In my almost eighteen years of schooling, I could recollect and remember only three such teachers out of ?!?!? I leave the math to you guys. So, why do not we get quality teachers?

As I said earlier, teachers should not work only to earn their wages. They have to look beyond that, they should understand the kind of responsibility they hold in the society. But, I'm not sure how many teachers out there actually appreciate their work. Most of the time, they end up teaching only because they didn't get anything better to do or simply with a notion of leading an easy life. Blimey, how in the heavens can shaping up a child for a better future could be a simple job?

Teachers should understand their himalayan responsibility and wholeheartedly dedicate themselves for the cause. In the very first place, they should know how to lead the students. Students are like a herd and they need someone to guide them. They do not need some i-only-do-it-for-money junkie.

How many teachers actually upgrade their knowledge to keep with up the changes happening out there? Of course, many of them, but still for a country like India, many is not too many. We need teachers who can motivate students to do great things; teachers who can inculcate humanity into the young generation; teachers who can improve the creativity of their students; teachers who can imbibe morality and ethical principles to whoever they teach.

If education helps us to be civilized, teachers should help us to remain human as much as possible.

"When god created humans, everyone of them were good people. They did not have any problems between them. When time went by, a group them separated themselves and called themselves the bad guys. This two group fought with each other eternally. And then, good and bad people started living together. They were not two different groups anymore, they became more cunning. But, now-a-days, every human being personifies both good and bad qualities. They are not totally bad or totally good. What they feel defines what they are at that moment."

In this 21st century, I believe, teachers have a greater deed of infusing more good qualities to subdue the bad guy within every human. It's the job of the society and the government to give all the sophistication to these noble professionals. What say people?

A lonely old man

Monday, November 23, 2009

I'm here, lying in my bed,
I'm really old, with no hair in my head.
The day comes to an end, the sun so red,
I'm all alone, lying in my bed.
I don't know why am not yet dead,
I'm really old, with no hair in my head.